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[Sep. 29th, 2009|02:51 pm] |
wow...been a long ass time for me to do this.
lots have changed. and still everything is the same. ya |
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| time now |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|01:15 pm] |
ok....now is the time....we have the evidence, we have the proof, we have the thought, we have the knowledge, we have the immagination...the time is now...! time now!
time for what...well: for us to be straigt, to be forward, for us to be us!
no more hidding, or fooling, or punishing ourselves, into thinking there is no other way. its just now! no more excuses...we are who we are. and not what makes us, we are what we want. you dont really own anything...your car, your house, your job, your time...its not yours, and not anyone elses, its nothing... not to say you are nothing without it. you are the all...you are the something...you and me, and us are all of this. and through these things we are controlled and put off just another day for being ourselves.
the plan: 'the plan', has been there since before any of us were born, before those who carry it can remember...the plan is yourself(selfeshness), thinking that you are the only person in this world is crazy, ludacris, insane. you, i, us all know this. but to think that there are still people, whom have the power, that think this way. they are the ones running all of our lives, with everything you think you own... you are made through this, to think you have no power, because of what you dont have control over(or own). thus you, i, us; all believe that we need more, and more, and more. to make, to alienate, ourselves from what is. you, i, us are all in a downward spiral, of morality, belief, and materials. you, i, us all believe we are in debt for what we own. if you dont believe me: ask anyone. they have at least one agreement they dont believe in. this is the DIS-trust,'the plan', set in place from the begining of humanity that has made us always doubt our existance through these things, these things we dont even own...if you dont believe me once again: ask anyone, they have a debt or contract to someone or something.
...what you, i, us dont know: this is all a stall. the fact you are intitled to have to OBLIGATE YOURSELF to these things, and want control, but never quite get. is a stall. the fact you have a debt to nothing. is a stall. till tomarrow, and the next day, and the next...till you dont have anything but yourself(in death of physical being). its a stall to have the grip of knowledge, knowing: you, i, us all are 'trained', its a grip of no power. you, i, us: have gripped ourselves. and you, i, us all rule ourselves upon this now.
this grip the few have on us, to control, domesticate, and minipulate us is so apperant, it is now all around us. in everything! if you dont believe me: look around for yourself.
there mistake: a giant mistake has been made...you cant domesticate the soul. you cant hold knowledge from the mind. it will know it, or acheive to know it itself. this you, i, anyone else have no control over...the biggest mistake: the fact they(whomever they may be(the entiti humanity has created)the ones at the top of the financial summit), have tricked themselves into 'believing' they have the power. because of there control over the things you, i, us all own. the belief that we are just animals, with these things to make us outsiders... this entiti believes WE dont know whats going on. you dont believe me: ask anyone whom has ever questioned our(humanities)governmental system(everyone).
once again, there 'mistake': is thinking we are nieve as them. they cant deni OUR thoughts!
...now read carfully...
this entiti, them, the evil source, the devil...how ever you wish to identify our negative counterparts. have made mistakes, these too are human created problems(ask anyone), as humans this entiti has manifested into what ISN'T.
they have manifested some weekness', some blemishes.
...if you, i, us: are able to look into the past, dont dwell, dont relly, but just look...we can see these flaws. there is one giant one stairing in our face...the fact that whomever, whatever, and therefore whenever: spawned the thought, to attack our free will, free thought, by involving ourselves is in part 'terror'. the thought bringing WAR, the thought of atacking, destroying, killing, or even disrupting our own people...our own CountryMen & CountryWomen, whom are just as much of us as we are. the thought that you can attack and kill so many, in an attempt of your "own" control. once again dont believe me: ask anyone---defined as Betrayal
...the men/women/???(whomever) had the thought to attack US on sept. 11 2001 in new york. the 'setup' of master plan, to attack, and justify, the death of thousands of people. it is acounted from everyone who was there: and lived:: and there: and died. can tell you it was no mear accident. this was not anyone outside the 'United States,' master plan. terrorism, the word terror. derives from within. its in yours. mine. and everyone else whom affected by this Disaster's mind. this entiti(inside), can be destroyed...so very easily, with the truth WE ALL SEEK! -once again dont believe me: ask anyone who was there(watch 'Loose Change', 9/11 conspiracy, read a newspaper, read a book).-
...the two towers that were serged by a discreate and percise attack, demolition, distruction: have been used. to fuel or emotions into 'believing' we were decieved, by an outside inferior persons. in efforts of terrorism. and only(not like the fuel tank in your car) can be drivin more exponentially, and without any need for refuel...except by the fuel you, i, and everyone: creates within.
-terror can only terrorize you
...but this infact, is really only one thing, one instant, one time, one happening. that can be recognized. all fear of losing what you own is terrorism itself. no ONE is a terrorist, only the mind persieving the action is the thought of terror. this being said, everything from your fear of: losing your wife/husband(girlfreind/boyfreind), friends, or family... losing your job, your house, your car, your clothes... turning people, things, or organizations against you... turning your love against you... taking or hurting someones feelings... ect... all this can be classified as terror, and only in the 'eyes of the beholder' can be deamed terror.
if you, i, or us...can so easily be minipulated into thinking there is a classification, for any emotion, fealing, action, reaction. is being extremely small. and feeling you are extremely small is only damaging yourself...
-i would love infact, if you disbelieve this, which i hope everyone does. will able yourself to finding out the TRUTH.
...as you know, dont believe anyone else but yourself. dont believe what others believe. just know the TRUTH! teach yourself what really goes on, not only will be able to understand it more, you will know the TRUTH. outside your habitat waits all the truths of today, yesterday, and even tomarrow.
...and dont take this as one example, like 'terror': knowledge, understanding, compassion, love, and TRUE wisdom: all have the exponential outcome, and only get bigger and bigger.
LOVE AND LIGHT TO ALL
once again...if you dont believe me: go-find-it-out-for-your-self-! |
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| caecarian |
[Oct. 11th, 2008|03:25 pm] |
did you know jesus(caesarian), is actually the son of cleopatra and caeser. he was born 47bc, in alexandria(suposed to be new capitol of rome). and since the fall of caesar in the ides of march 44bc, his successor(righfully his son caecarian) but not, was octavia(or better known as augustas "octavia" ceaser) had a better plan for the overthrown republic of rome. he had julius' most loyal ally mark antoiny exiled from rome, in order to restore the "rightfull power" of the republic to rome.
cleopatra now 29 yrs old, was exiled and dammed by rome and egypt for bringing about the great drought of 44bc, antoiny and cleo conceived a grand idea of julius to make the ultimate empire in which "alexandria"(in egypt) was to be the capitol. but the boastfull successor octavia, thought cleopatra, who was thought to be the god ICIES, was trying to destroy rome. sent word of war, in which antoiny was killed at the decicive battle of antium, thus ending the "grand plot" to over throw the republic. cleopatra so destrought by this trechery to humanity kills herself with the bite of an asp at age 39.
thus leaving all of the successive children of rightfull "real democratic" rome defensless. and octavia has all but a mysterious daughter of antoiny and cleo, crux. or crucified, in show of defiance to the REPUBLIC. and thus the story of the new testament.
nother fact: 44bc was the year ceasar decides that sol(the sun), and not luna(the moon) was the time keeper. and which he has our modern greghorian time system enstowed. |
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| daddy hood |
[Dec. 29th, 2007|01:36 pm] |
yes...all you who still read my boring additives. yes im like a cigarette, except i dont have a filter. im like a deadly cancerous, lung infesting...delicious cigerette. exuse me...i want a cigerette.
...ok. anyway. as i say, im a daddy now. making my daddy a super daddy. but he doesnt fly around. its the most interesting thing. and now i understand how people say, theres just not enough time in the day. because by the time youve fed him changed him and put new clothes on, hes gotta be fed and changed and put new clothes on... but its all really worth the pain and anguish. and lack of sleep...uh. thank god for coffee and earplugs. yes.
no...hes a really good baby, he will just sit there...well lay there and look around with his big beautiful dark blue eyes, and stair off at the baby void. hes very smart and very cute. but also alot of work. so if your deciding to have a baby, you either need alot of money, or alot of time. which we have neither. ...so feel free to write me a check anytime. joshua jagow @ 159 willow ave, fairfax cali. 94930.
anywho...time is a waistin, and i think we be leavin. so for now, and later...tata bitches!!!
-jagow |
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| jumblybumbly |
[Dec. 5th, 2007|09:33 pm] |
does anyone even use this shit anymore. or is everyone myspace whore's now. ?
i havent been on this for so long. i can remember when i started it. dude that was a long fuckin time ago, i was like a sophmore. i think...back when the dinosuars roamed the god forsaken, evil mutha fuckin' human disgraced race. these mutha fuckin times. uhhh but anyway. gonna go get drunk at work. peace bitches!!! |
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| drama |
[Aug. 23rd, 2007|11:29 am] |
ok...this is really the only place i can go where crazy bitch dont follow. and this is where i tell yall about my delema...
so about 5 months ago i went to oregon, with this girl. all seems to be great. its almost too great. i get to see all my freinds, buy a half o for 120. and an o of shrooms for 90...? ya seems to be great. everything is going good. we do some stuff. and of course we fuck. all is well. we come back and all of a sudden shit hits the fan. she doesnt know what shes doing, and loses her job, loses just about everything she has. so i walk. i cant stand listening to her bitch about how her life is nothing but a fuck up and shes the only one to blame.
so i leave. im single, its awsome. i enroll in school, and get a job...what seems wrong with that. well the job sucks. but its still works. im making my life work. getting ready to move out and start my own life(ya know?). i had a weird suspicion that something wasnt right. and what happens. i get a call...JOSH IM PREGNANT. son of a bitch. ive been dealling with the thought of it. its not easy.
but what doesnt make it any easier is the bitch on the other end. she seams to think she has every right to do whatever the fuck she wants. she keeps on smokin meth, fuckin dudes, and just havin a jolly time. im tellin her then.
now its the 23rd, and we have kinda come to an agreement. we would move out and raise this child...dont get me wrong i love the fact of having a kid. it brings tears to my eyes knowing.
but now, after she gets backed into a corner. shes been kicked out. living with her sister, and gonna have no where to live. she doesnt see that its not just affecting her life. i tell her but her stubborn ass doesnt listen. and heres the kicker, im willing to help her...move out and start her life. she would have to move an hour away from where she has nothin in the first place. she even tells me she hates it there. but another kicker..."i would have to drop everything to just make you happy." excuse me bitch, i moved from where i lived and grew up. i miss all my freinds more then i miss your sorry ass. and your tellin me, makin me the bad guy. she seams to think her life is perfect and she has never even been able to keep a job for a month. all she can do is open her legs. maybe im just overreacting...but dont i have a reason...i mean its not just her child...and now i cant even believe it is mine.
so what does she say...the most irrational thing... "im gonna put it up for adoption." i mean in who's right mind would you lose the oppertunity to move out, start your life, raise a child, and have whatever you really want...all because she wont move across a fuckin highway.
i dont even wanna care about her anymore.
is this fucked up? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|01:48 pm] |
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ahhhhhhhh!!! dude...this sucks. i gotta git rid of my "piece of shit car." it leaks oil on all the electrical parts, how funny is that. the car is killing itself. do you think they designed cars to destroy themselves? well i guess its a perfect ploy to fuck everyone up the ass. make a car that lasts long enough that the warrenty is void and then have it blow up... thats ok, im gonna rent a car, and then egg and t.p the place that sold me my car. damn fuckin russian stupid asses!!! thats whats wrong with america, were to damn open for changes, open enough to let some dumb ass russians jew all the actual americans. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2007|07:16 pm] |
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finally i have decided to move back up to my home. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 30th, 2007|05:08 pm] |
what is going on in my life...it doesnt make sense, as soon as i think ive made a good decision it turns on me and fucks me in the hinny. breakin up with sara, buyin my new car, thinkin i had everything figured out as soon as i started school. i thought life in cali was gonna be different i thought i was gonna start my own life. and all i have been doing is listening to others in my problems, and helpin freinds try and get layed, or get jobs. its the same shit that was happening in oregon, but worse. because i dont even know no-one. well about the only good thing is that there is a possibility of getting like 14 grams of coke, and a half o of weed this sunday. plus the new girl works tommorrow. should be interesting.
i cant understand the slump of my life...its as soon as i figure it out, it turns on me and tells me to go another way. fuckin crazy. |
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